Mark Reed on mental health, love and impact
Professor Mark Reed is an academic, author, podcaster, consultant, trainer, policy advisor among his many roles. His research area is on ecosystem markets and environmental governance, and he studies how researchers can generate and share their knowledge so they can change the world. Reflecting both of these strands, he is both an academic, co-directing a research Centre at Scotland’s Rural College, and he is the founder of Fast Track Impact, a training and coaching company, and he hosts The Fast Track Impact podcast. He also has a host of other roles you can read about on his web page.
We discuss the concept of 'impact' in academia, the challenges of mental health and burnout amongst academics, and the importance of self-compassion, self-reflection and self-care. Driven by a desire to make a difference, Mark intertwines his academic inquiries with a commitment to environmental stewardship and decolonizing research. He also talks about his commitment to empowering colleagues, managing postdocs efficiently, and his take on the biases and limitations within the academic system.
Overview
00:05 Introduction
00:30 Meet Professor Mark Reed: A Multi-faceted Academic
01:18 The Importance of Self-Reflection in Academia
01:56 Mark's Personal Struggles and the Importance of Self-Compassion
02:07 The Role of Purpose and Values in Mark's Work
02:56 Mark's Journey as an Academic and Policy Advisor
07:23 The Challenges and Biases in the Academic System
08:32 Building a Compassionate Culture in Academia
11:33 Decolonizing Research and Influencing Policy
27:11 The Role of Empathy and Love in Research
32:13 The Importance of Self-Care and Work-Life Balance in Academia
48:05 Creating a Purposeful Workplace and Leading from the Bottom Up
51:24 Conclusion: The Impact of Love and Empathy in Academia
52:56 End
Listen here for a version to follow the transcript linked directly to the audio
Related Links
Mark's research web page & Fast Track Impact page
Mark’s books: https://www.fasttrackimpact.com/books#impact-culture
- The Research Impact Handbook 2nd Ed 2018
- The Productive Researcher 2017
- Impact Culture 2022
Mark’s ‘The Fast Track Impact’ podcast series
Mark Reed & Hanna Rudman, Re-thinking research impact: voice, context and power at the interface of science, policy and practice, 18, Sustainability Science, 967-981, 2023.
Richard Watermeyer's 2019 book: Competitive Accountability in Academic Life: The Struggle for Social Impact and Public Legitimacy
Dr Kristin Neff, Uni of Austen Texas on self compassion
Prof Michelle Pinard, Uni of Aberdeen
This podcast uses the following third-party services for analysis:
Chartable - https://chartable.com/privacy
Transcript
Welcome to Changing Academic Life.
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:I'm Geraldine Fitzpatrick, and this is
a podcast series where academics and
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:others share their stories, provide
ideas, and provoke discussions about what
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:we can do individually and collectively
to change academic life for the better.
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Today, I bring you a conversation with Professor Mark Reed.
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:Mark's an academic, an author, a
podcaster consultant trainer policy
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:advisor, amongst his many roles.
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:And he's someone who's really driven
by wanting to make a difference.
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:His research is on ecosystem markets
and environmental governance.
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:And he also studies how researchers
can generate and share their
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:knowledge for more impact.
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:Reflecting both of these strands.
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:He's an academic, co-directing a research
center at Scotland's rural college.
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:And he is the founder of a
company called fast track impact.
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:And as part of this hosts the
fast track impact podcast series.
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:Given the recent discussions
around burnout, I thought
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:it would be particularly
interesting to talk with mark.
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:Because if you listen to
his podcast, you'll know him
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:as an amazingly reflective,
thoughtful and principled person.
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:Who brings his whole self and
shares very honestly and openly.
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:In that same vein, we discuss here some
of the issues around academic research,
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:like the complex nature of research and
biases within the system and ways that
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:we might sort of decolonize research.
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:And more particularly for
our recent discussions.
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:He also shares his own personal struggles
and challenges around mental health.
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:And the importance of self
compassion and being self-reflective.
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:And you'll see a really strong red thread
about how he's really clear about his
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:purpose and values and the importance of
that for guiding all of his decisions.
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:I found it a really inspiring and honest
demonstration of courage and curiosity
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:and the, and the quest for impact.
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:Enjoy listening to this
conversation with Mark Reed.
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:Mark, thanks for joining me.
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:I'm really so excited to be talking to
you because I've been a huge fan of your
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:work and what you put out in the world.
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:Before we get to some of that, how
would you want to introduce yourself?
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:Because it's rich and
complex and multifaceted.
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:Mark: Um, yeah, so I guess I have a
few different hats that I can put on.
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:Um, and I guess for this, it's
primarily the role that I play through
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:FastTrackImpact, which is a company I set
up to generate impact from my research
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:on impact, um, trying to understand how
it is that we as researchers can use our
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:work to make a difference in the world,
um, and so through fast track impact,
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:I do training, create free resources
and, uh, and do my best to enable busy
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:academics to use their time as wisely as
possible to make as much of a difference
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:as they can with the time that they have.
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:I am also a full time academic.
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:I'm a professor of rural,
rural entrepreneurship and co
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:director of a research centre
at Scotland's Rural College.
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:I've got visiting chairs in, in three
other universities and a range of
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:other roles with policy organisations.
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:where I am trying to achieve impact
from my environmental research.
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:So I have this kind of dual track of
the environmental research where I'm
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:trying to make a difference in one
domain, applying what I'm learning from
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:my research on impact to try and make
more of a difference in my own work,
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:but also then bringing that experience
and that kind of lived experience of
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:what actually works in practice back
into my research and training on impact.
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:Geri: It's, it's, that's very meta.
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:Mark: Yeah, it's nice.
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:The two just, yeah, they
work really nicely together.
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:And also my PhD, wanting
to make a difference and
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:failing to make a difference.
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:And then just like any curious
researcher wondering, yeah, how
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:did I get this so badly wrong?
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:What can I do differently
and generalize from there?
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:Geri: And that's what comes across so
much in all your work that I don't know
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:stepping into the full humanity of.
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:Who you are as Mark Reed, like not who
you, you know, not who you are as the
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:academic in some generic identity sense,
but I think the richness and the value
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:comes from that, I don't know, just
owning all of the different complexities
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:and the things not working out.
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:And more than that, the
ability to reflect on it.
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:Were you always a very reflective person?
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:Mark: Yeah, I don't know.
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:I don't think any more
than any other researcher.
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:I've yet to meet a researcher who is
not driven in some sense by a sense
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:of curiosity, but, um, I think, um, As
I've gone on through my career, I've had
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:more courage and seen the difference it
can make to talk about the challenges.
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:I think that that's also
given me some meaning.
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:I've had some fairly major challenges
that I've had to wade through to get
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:where I am, just to do what I'm doing.
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:And, um, and I think being able to
to reflect on that and and talk about
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:that and empower others has helped
me to find some meaning in that to
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:say well yeah it wasn't for nothing
actually if others can take something
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:from that experience and And I think
it's, it's quite rare that people in
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:kind of more senior roles, like myself,
talk about these kinds of challenges.
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:And the result is that you look at
all of these people who are further
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:ahead than you in your career, and it
just seems completely unattainable.
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:If only I had all of the privileges
that someone like Mark has, and I
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:have a lot of privileges as A white,
heterosexual male with English as my
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:first language, all of the rest of it.
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:And I think what I've tried to communicate
is that, yeah, for all of that privilege,
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:I've had hidden struggles with mental
health in particular that have been
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:debilitating, that have required
me to make major adaptations to my
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:My, my hope is that, that I can give
people a, a bit of hope that yeah, it's
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:possible to, to get through Mm-Hmm.
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:Um, and to, and to keep going, uh, and,
um, and hopefully give a few people
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:a bit of sustenance on the way if,
if they've found things hard as well.
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:And yeah, some of it's internal,
but a lot of it is external.
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:We, we are working in a broken
system that makes things incredibly
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:hard, uh, especially if you.
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:find your life at the intersection
of a whole load of disadvantages, um,
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:uh, and, uh, on the, the wrong end of,
uh, of all of the, the institutional
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:biases and privileges that are handed
out to certain types of, of, of people.
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:It's an incredibly hard place
to, to work in and thrive.
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:Rejection just baked into,
to, to the system of peer
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:It's hard, but it's good.
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reality that I want to paint
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:Geri: You're talking
about personal issues.
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:And that is just such a salient reminder
about, don't believe what we see, that
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:all of us are human in different ways.
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:And probably everyone we're working
with has different sorts of issues.
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a compassionate culture.
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:Can you say a little bit more about that
in terms of how we might enable space
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:for one another to, uh, on the surface
seem like we're okay, but actually not be
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:Mark: one of the exercises I do in,
uh, in a couple of my, my trainings is.
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:To get people to think about and discuss
how they deal with challenges around
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people pleasing, things like that.
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:To just normalise the fact that,
oh, we all struggle with at least
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time, and many of us struggle with
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just opening that up.
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:having some discussion about that.
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:The biggest eye opener is the
fact that we're not alone in this.
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:And, um, and surprisingly, actually,
it's, it's often new professors who, uh,
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:who I find struggle most with imposter
syndrome because imposter syndrome
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:ultimately is about a gap between how you
see yourself and how the world sees you.
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:And so it is often, uh, once we reach
those milestones that we've been striving
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:for and thought, yes, if I can just
get to that point, then I'll feel like
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:I'm worth it, that I deserve this.
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:That all of a sudden that gulf opens up
again, um, and, and I think especially,
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:I think it's particularly powerful when
more senior colleagues open up about these
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with them, uh, because, uh, ultimately
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:What I encourage people to do is
to realize that they've taken the
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:first step towards self compassion.
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:And Kristin Neff talks about this
from University of Austin, Texas.
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self compassion is realizing that you
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:are not alone, realizing that actually
part of the human experience to suffer
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up and saying I shouldn't feel like this,
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and self compassion is actually,
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for compassion towards others.
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setting, whether that's in a training
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just talking openly about these things.
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way about how you tackle, how you
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:It doesn't have to be overly
vulnerable if you don't want it to be.
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yeah, we all struggle with these things.
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:We all give ourselves self compassion,
and we start to see our colleagues
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:with more humanity, understanding that,
yeah, perhaps you're having a hard day.
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:Perhaps I can see now, based on what you
said, that that's maybe what's going on.
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up when everything else
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:Mm,
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:Geri: and with the biases that you
talked about in the system, do you
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:I mean, you mentioned the high rate
of rejection that we know is also tied
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and performance metrics and how we
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:beat ourself up often, but how do
you see or experience the biases
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:Mark: Um, so I guess at one end of the
spectrum is the insecurity of tenure
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:that many of us face, a job that you have
trained for years and years and invested.
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:Whether it's your own money or just lost,
lost earnings in terms of your education,
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:you've invested huge amounts in and,
uh, and then you've got, uh, an average
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:It's not terrible, but it's not
great, uh, given the number of
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:Um, and one, two year, three year
contracts, and enrolling from one contract
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:to the next, and a publish or perish
culture in which, yeah, if, if I'm not
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I end up not getting first authorship
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:opportunities, not getting time to
write up PhD, whatever else it might be.
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:Uh, then, then yeah, I get stuck
on a hamster wheel of insecurity.
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:Uh, and, um, and yeah, that's, it's not a
life in which you want to bring a family
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:into, uh, you end up putting your whole,
whole life on, uh, on hold for this, um,
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:and, and, and then at the other end of
the spectrum, um, yeah, people like me.
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:Who got security of tenure, who, who then,
uh, build networks and get privileged
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:And, uh, Sir Richard Waterby is, uh,
published on this, but there are others
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:who, um, have written about how the, at
least in the UK, the majority of, uh,
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are old white men, typically with prof
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:Um, and so I have access, uh, to,
to, to policy networks that my
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:early career colleagues don't have.
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:Um, uh, and, uh, and so my next book
actually is called Influencing Policy,
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:and what I've attempted to do in
this is to try and decolonize, uh,
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:my approach to influencing policy.
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for what it is, the fact that a lot
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influencing another elite, because, like
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club with a bunch of policy elites
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those policy makers make will have
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whole load of groups who are often
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:They're not in those corridors of power.
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:And I think that one of our greatest
challenges, but also privileges is in
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away, how we can, uh, if not empower and
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:bring those people into the corridors
of power, give voice to their opinions
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:and not just assume that our policy
colleagues are going to do that for us.
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:And of course that then applies
to how we manage our postdocs.
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with me last month and I said to
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:her, uh, I expect you as part of the
project management plan that you are
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me all the papers that you're working
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um, and PhD, if they're still there.
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:Um, and by the end of this post, uh,
have a plan that makes sure that they
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as well as all of the stuff that
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potentially coaching as well if people
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away what we have, um, as more senior
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:academics, uh, to those who are less
fortunate than ourselves, so that we
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:Geri: I'm just wondering whether some
people listening may think that there's
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:a cost to doing that as a PI, telling
the postdoc, you can work on papers from
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you may not be a co author on, or that
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policy discussion so that you're not
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:Um, do you, do you have
those sorts of discussions or
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:Mark: So if you, if you've got a postdoc
that, uh, that, that you are really
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want this postdoc to stay to the end of
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you on future projects, uh, or, uh,
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as a lecturer or, uh, uh, et cetera.
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:Then, then why wouldn't you want to invest
for the long term and yeah, there's a,
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get a lecture, lectureship elsewhere.
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likely is that they will stay
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:And if they do get an offer, they
can't refuse, then they will work as
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off and not leave you in the lurch.
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:And my PI colleagues, uh, who take a
much more kind of mercenary approach
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:to this, um, regularly have problems
with staff turnover, um, where,
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:yeah, uh, why would I work for this
person if I get an offer elsewhere?
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things off someone like this when,
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that, but when it comes to the policy
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actually something deeply irresponsible
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that I try to get my research impact
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not be based on individual studies.
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would flip flop every time a new study
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for equally good reasons, because
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different research design, a different
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the literature is rarely, uh,
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of work, not just on our own work,
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should be trying our best to represent
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kind of black and white reductionist
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representing different perspectives,
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evidence based perspective, which could
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might suggest doing different things.
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that simply say, yes, the evidence might
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space, I work with academics who
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consensus that GM foods are safe.
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be changing a bit since leaving Brexit.
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say, no, because the public
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well, you don't need democracy anymore.
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to actually think really deeply
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doing if this is about my glory.
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:Geri: Again, that takes a lot of self
reflection and Leaving the ego at
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these competing concerns, data,
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:You talked about decolonizing
this process and you talked about,
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you, you think about decolonizing
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you is, is a paper that I
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Rethinking Research Impact.
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attempt to decolonize that this
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we have, uh, around research impact,
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researchers who know what is right
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what to do based on the evidence.
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thing that I've ever written.
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:And the majority of my co authors actually
decided that they wanted to withdraw
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:and not have their names associated
with the paper because they believed
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:And so it was this, this huge internal
battle for me to decide whether
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or whether I should put this out.
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:And despite the fact that there is
a fundamental problem here, which
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we need to get out of the way.
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to lead this process for their own benefit
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letting someone else write this article.
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a process of saying well yeah this
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not maybe as far ahead in my thinking
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:But I know that there's plenty of
people who are still behind me on this
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can help others to become more self
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:And so how I got around this was
to write a positionality statement
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:in a paper, me and my co author.
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:Um, to explain, uh, our positionality
in relation to all of these issues,
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of, uh, of advantage and disadvantage
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:And as part of that, I, um, in the
paper made a public apology for
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:what I now see as the epistemic
racism of my PhD research.
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:Uh, where, uh, I went out to the Kalahari,
um, uh, and, uh, and tested local
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:knowledge, um, and validated, um, all
of this incredible local knowledge, uh,
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uh, as if somehow, uh, I'd proven that
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Western science says you're right.
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what I've done wrong, um, uh, that
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but, but opening this up to others.
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ways in which we can do this, which is
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:And I guess it's that final thing that
I've been talking about here, which
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:is that positionality and recognizing
my own implicit power and how that
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:comes across to others, whether or
not I'm aware of that, working with
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:And when I'm working policy or any other
kind of context, it's about understanding
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:those power dynamics, so that I'm not
putting people with each other who
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:are going to traumatize each other.
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:I'm separating groups where necessary
to work with them individually.
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them, rather than expecting them to come
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to some consultation or whatever else.
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professional facilitators or building
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thinking much more systematically
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analysis where I think about people's
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:Whether that's influences positive or
negative, it's maybe a blocking influence
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:as much as it is a facilitating influence
to achieve good things and impact,
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:whether that's they're gonna benefit from
this or negatively be impacted by this.
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:And, and this is a paper I've got on
the review at the moment, which is
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:effectively a, a, a, a more inclusive
approach to stakeholder analysis.
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:Uh, and a, another, another paper
under review at the moment where.
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:We are suggesting that even the word
stakeholder has colonial roots and
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:connotations which are problematic
that we need to root out if we
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:are to decolonize our language.
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:And so I guess to come back to your
question, for me the starting point is
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:that three I analysis, understanding
who it is that is out there in
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:a much more inclusive way, but a
deeper way so we can understand those
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:power dynamics and work with them.
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:Geri: And it sounds like underpinning
all that is another I around
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:intention, like your own intention,
um, coming into that work.
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:Mark: Tell me more.
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:What's, what's sweet?
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:What's your thought?
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:Geri: Well, it just struck me that,
you know, you can reflect on your
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:PhD work very honestly and openly
and cringe now and go, how could
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:I've How could I have done that?
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:Or how could I have been so arrogant to
bring this sort of, uh, Western lens?
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:And at the time, your best intention was
to do good because you talk about making
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:a difference , it seems like a red thread
value through everything that you do.
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:Um, and so sometimes our intentions,
while they come from a good place, may
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:also serve to blind us in some ways
to some of the maybe implicit biases.
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:Or just blind spots that we're not
seeing, you know, that, that with
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:time and with progression, just with
general society and general awareness,
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:I think you sort of go, Oh, goodness.
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:I think we can all in some ways,
look back at some of our research
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:and go, how did I do that?
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:Mark: Yeah.
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:Totally.
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:I come from a missionary family.
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:Um, and, um, some of my
ancestors were some of the first
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:missionaries in central Africa.
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:Um, and, um, I myself, I'm still a church
going Christian, um, that's, that's
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:my heritage, and, um, and I can see
the incredible good that my ancestors
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:did, that the church has done, and
the incredible evil that it has done.
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:And I'm using those two words, um,
because I think there is a, there is a
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:spiritual dimension to, to all of this.
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:And so for, for me, That word intention
takes me to a spiritual heart, and the
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:level of self reflection that we need
to do needs to be at that level, whether
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:we have a faith or not, it needs to be,
yeah, we need that external lens on what
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:we're doing, rather than our own internal
biases and lenses through which we look
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:at that we're completely unaware of.
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:to, to challenge us and
to challenge us deeply.
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:And I guess the question that I ask just
in my personal life and across everything
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:is, is what would, what would love do?
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:And for me that's a deeply personal
and a deeply spiritual question.
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:But, but asking what would love do in
this situation, uh, can, uh, can help
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:clarify intention for me at least.
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:Geri: And that's even in your
research, what would love to,
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:in sort of, I don't know, even down to
what research questions you frame and
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:what you choose to put your time to.
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:Mark: Yeah, absolutely.
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:Um, it's, it's quite
simple having a single, um,
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:overarching principle or value.
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:And so that's, that's been
my, my starting point.
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:Um, and, um, And, and, and that's
where, yeah, that's, that's why every
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:decision that I've made I've tried to
pass it through that and yeah, God knows
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:I've gotten it badly wrong multiple
times but of course you know when
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:you've gotten it wrong because love
tells you this is not love anymore.
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:Um, and um, and yeah, so I, I, I decided
early on that as a 12 year old, I want
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:to be missionary like my ancestors.
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:I went to university in order to study
tropical environmental science, to
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:go back to Africa where my ancestors
were, went to Africa, um, had a bit
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:of a revelation, realized, oh, there's
another side to all of this stuff.
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:Um, I decided actually the
biggest difference I could make
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:is through research and teaching.
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:I want to be an academic.
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:Um, one of my, my lecturers in my
fourth year, Michelle Pinard at Aberdeen
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:University, totally inspired me.
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:And I was like, yeah, I want
your job because if I can inspire
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:people the way you're inspiring me,
then I can do good in the world.
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:And she was doing development
studies type stuff.
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:Um, and I figured, you know what, yeah,
maybe I can actually have a far bigger
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:impact if I can start to be a bit more
critical about all this stuff, think
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:much more deeply about this and find
ways to teach others, um, based on
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:what I learn in this, in this area.
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:And, and of course that started
off in a very patronizing way.
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:Um, but it's kind of grown into, um, uh,
trying to, to not only fix environmental
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:problems, but to understand how it is
that we can all do good in the world
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:and hence to fast track impact and to
the training and the resources that I
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:create, which are all geared towards
whatever you want to do in the world,
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:whatever your value system might be, how
can you do, do good with, with your work.
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:Geri: That's so powerful.
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:I'm just, I'm feeling it in my gut, just
that resonating what would love do and the
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:way that that's remains a constant, even
though the practical ways you've realized
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:that have shifted and changed with
experience, with insight, with reflection.
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:And it's not something we ever think
of, we, like, love and research
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:aren't two words, or love and
academia aren't two words we hear
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:about, um, together very often.
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:Mark: No, but, uh, the word
that I tend to use with my
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:academic colleagues is empathy.
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:And there's, um, Not a million
miles between the concept of love
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:and the concept of, uh, of empathy.
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:Mm-Hmm.
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:Uh, and, and for me, a
definition of empathy is simply
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:compassion that takes action.
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:Uh, and, and love is a doing word.
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:Uh, love without action is just a
theory and it becomes meaningless.
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:And so, uh, for, for me, um, uh,
compassion that takes act action.
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:Uh, it might be a definition
for empathy, but it could also
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:be a definition for impact.
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:Mm
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:Geri: hmm.
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:Yeah.
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:Yeah.
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:And your self compassion that you
talked about before is, is love as well.
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:Yeah.
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:Because if you're not able to bring
your best self in that way or deal with.
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:All of the anxieties or the, the
imposter or whatever, you're not going
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:to be able to do the, the more outward
facing love that you want to do.
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:Yeah.
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:Mark: Yeah, exactly.
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:Yeah.
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:And I've had some, some fairly
challenging things that have happened to
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:me and, uh, just contexts within life.
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:And, and a lot of that
is, is ongoing sadly.
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:And I think I've, I've, I've worked
out that actually just to, to survive
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:and to have that self compassion,
I need to give myself time.
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:And, uh, and for the last 18 months,
I've, uh, taken my Fridays and, uh, just,
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:yeah, in the morning I'll finish whatever
work I need to do for, for the week.
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:And I jump on my bike and,
um, and just spend time in
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:nature, whatever the weather.
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:And it's coming to, to, uh, to
our winter, uh, in Britain here.
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:So, uh, a lot of wet
Fridays, um, uh, coming up.
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:But, um...
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:Wet and cold.
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:Wet and cold, yeah.
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:Snow and then I just go out tramping
through the snow and ice for the day.
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:Um, and um, and just, yeah,
it's just been taking that time
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:for, for myself and it has been
incredibly restorative and healing.
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:And, and yeah, I mean, I'm coming up
to almost 50 now, um, and, um, and it
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:is that 18 months of Fridays that have,
uh, that have enabled me to get to the
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:bottom of the source of, uh, of my anxiety
and, uh, of, uh, of the, the periods
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:of depression that I've experienced,
uh, through, through my career.
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:And get the clarity I need to understand
what I need to actually do now.
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:And I think it's very
easy to hide in your work.
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:And I think that I've been
guilty of that through my career.
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:Yeah, I might feel terrible about
myself, but I can get a pat on
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:the world, pat on the back from
the world when I publish a paper.
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:My name on the front.
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:Um, and, um, and I think, yeah, it's
easy to hide, hide in work and, and
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:ignore, uh, what, what's going on,
especially when you know that whatever
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:you open up is not going to be nice.
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:Um, but, um, but yeah, I, I,
I'm, uh, it's, it's been 18
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:months of, of, of hard work.
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:And for the first time
now I, I have clarity.
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:I understand why I struggled
the way that I have.
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:And, um, And yeah, I think, I want
to normalise that because, yeah,
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:getting therapy, if there are things
which just keep coming back again
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:and again and again, rather than
just accepting that these things
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:come, medicate them in whatever way.
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:I think it's important to recognize
that that is an option and there's
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:nothing there's no shame in that.
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:I often recommend people find find a
coach, find a coach is also a trained
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:counselor, because yeah, you might
feel like there's just some things
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:I need to, to overcome in terms of
productivity, but I have a sense
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:that there's a deeper roots and.
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:Let's work with a coach who can then
transform into a counsellor if and
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:when I need that, when I discover
the roots of these, these issues
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:that I'm trying to work through.
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:Geri: That seems to connect back to
what you said at the very beginning
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:about curiosity and courage.
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:What courage did it take to
create that Friday space?
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:Because I imagine there would always
be work demands that you could be
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:doing, especially when you seem
to be doing so much so what did it
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:take to actually protect that time?
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:Mark: Uh, so I think we can all do
this thought experiment, uh, what
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:to happen if you suddenly got sick,
um, and you had to go part time.
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:Uh, you're now having to cut
your, your hours in half.
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:Would you be 50 percent less productive
or actually would it force you to really
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:ask yourself, what are the core things?
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:What is the most important
things that I have to do?
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:Um, uh, and if you do that with your
values, uh, side by side, um, uh,
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:then you realize the things that
actually can go, that, that are not
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:actually that important, that you can
sacrifice, because in fact, it was just.
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:They're really to massage my
ego . Um, yeah, I've got, uh,
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:I've got, I dunno, 200 papers.
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:Uh, do I really need, uh,
10 papers a year, actually?
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:Yeah.
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:If I go for five papers a year,
that's still more than average.
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:I'm, I'm okay with that.
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:Um, uh, and as long as I'm doing, uh,
as the same amount of, of reviews, um,
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:for the community, as I extract from
the community, uh, through all of the,
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:the grants and, and papers I submit, um,
yeah, I'm gonna say I've done enough.
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:And so I think you can
all we can all do that.
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:And, and I think a lot of people it's yeah
I have children, and all of a sudden I
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:can't work evenings and weekends anymore.
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:And people who have gone through
that experience will tell you,
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:yeah, I still do all the core stuff
and actually I just focused on
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:the stuff that was most important.
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:your values that are driving you
to do that, then it becomes easy.
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:It was, it was a matter of survival.
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:I realized that I wasn't going to
be able to keep, to keep going.
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:Um, the lockdown was the kind of the
final straw for me in terms of my anxiety.
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:I didn't make it back
to face to face work.
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:Um, and, um, and yeah, that, that was
what made me realize, yeah, this is.
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:Fundamental and problematic enough
and compromising work to the point
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:that actually, I need to talk
to my line manager about this.
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:I need to, above board, go and take
these Fridays and do this work.
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:And I think, ultimately, the payback
will be that I will be able to, I've done
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:two, three now actually, work, face to
face work things, and they've gone well.
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:And so there will be that payback.
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:And I think there's this false
economy where you say, I don't
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:have time to prioritize me.
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:I need to just dive into my work.
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:And yeah, if you were to spend half
an hour, an hour every Monday morning
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:in work time, just doing something
deeply, For you, and it could be a work
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:priority, chipping away at some papers.
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:It could be, I don't know, playing
an instrument, being creative.
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:It's something that connects you
with your values, with your purpose
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:at the beginning of your week.
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:If you can't at the beginning of your day,
then, uh, yeah, you're taking time out.
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:But actually you go into your day
inspired, you go into your day with
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:the sense of I can, and as a result
you don't procrastinate, you don't
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:people please, um, you get on with the
difficult things, um, and you have this
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:sense of well being that stretches out
and becomes an arc from week to week,
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:to month to month, to term to term.
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:Uh, and enables you to
actually work more effectively.
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:And so, so yeah, I think it's a
false economy just saying, yeah,
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:I'm, I'm too busy to prioritize
myself and my own needs.
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:Um, and I put work first, but I'm just
running around like a headless chicken.
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:Geri: Yeah.
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:The headless chicken is something we
can probably, many of us can relate to.
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:Well, and that requires, you know,
you, when you were talking about your
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:PhD student, you talked about the
longer term view with them and enabling
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:their career development and also
the payback that they stay with you.
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:It's the same long term view that you're
talking about here, that in the short
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:term view we can just get the headless
chicken, can't look further than all the
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:things on the to do list, but that if you
can prioritize that time and connect with
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:what energizes you and where you can make
your difference, where you want to make
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:your difference, um, it resources you
for everything else that you need to do.
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:And it may be a long process.
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:I think that's the other thing
that's interesting is the, you
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:know, the arc of our careers.
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:You talked about the well being arc,
and it's the arc of our careers that if
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:we want to be around for the long term,
these are almost like non negotiables
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:being able to do these things.
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:Mark: Yeah, yeah, absolutely.
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:Any parent will know the same thing.
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:It can just be sort of grueling, you
know, you're not getting any sleep,
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:there's just so many things to do and
you're trying to work at the same time.
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:Um, uh, and, uh, and yeah, you know that
if, uh, if you don't somehow manage to,
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:to get enough sleep, uh, if you don't
somehow manage to, to prioritize just
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:even a tiny bit of time for yourself, um,
then you're not actually going to be able
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:to be the parent that you want to be.
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:And you start seeing that coming out in
your parenting and the impact of that.
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:And so, yeah, we all find this truth in
different ways, in different contexts,
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:that it is that idea that everything
starts with love, and whether that
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:is a source that you find from within
yourself or from a higher being.
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:Um, the, that it has to start
with, uh, with, uh, with, with
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:the hearts of love within you.
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:Um, and, uh, only from that place,
uh, of, of self care can you
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:then care for others properly.
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:And that doesn't mean being selfish,
doesn't mean spending lots of time.
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:I think that's one of the objections
to the approach that I train in
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:through the productive researcher,
which is this idea that you start
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:your week or your day with something
that connects you to your purpose.
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:And people are like, well,
that's just really selfish.
607
:But actually, if a colleague came
to you and said, I want to chip away
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:at one of my papers for my PhD, or
practice an instrument to energize
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:me for the week, one hour per week,
Before I start my week, you wouldn't
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:say, well, that's really selfish.
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:I want all your time
for me and my project.
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:I hope he was like, yeah,
that's really great.
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:That's fantastic.
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:And I can, of course, can see
how that will benefit you and in
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:the long term, your work project.
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:And, and you'd be like, yeah, so why can
we not do that for ourselves and actually.
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:If you can't do that for yourself,
it says something much deeper
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:about your own self respect.
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:And you need to go do the work to
ask, well, why can't I prioritize
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:half an hour on a Monday morning
as a starting point for this?
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:For me, I can't do that.
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:I can't find half an hour.
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:I'm not worth even that.
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:Yeah, and of course then you go on a
different journey and hopefully realise
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:at the end of that that maybe you can give
yourself half an hour in which way half an
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:hour per week can be enough just to give
you the sense of, oh yeah, I am actually
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:a human being after all, that has purpose
and it is connected to something deeper.
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:Geri: So purpose and values are recurring
themes in what you've said here today
629
:and in your book, so to, you've got
another book on research impact, the
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:Handbook of Research Impact, but the
two books that purpose and values,
631
:particularly figure in, I think, are the
productive researcher and, impact culture.
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:And I love the way, and I know that
you've talked about it as sort of,
633
:you know, you're talking about these
things that sound, like what academia
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:wants, you know, productive research,
producing lots of outputs and papers
635
:or, having impact, you know, which is
in particularly in the UK in terms of
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:how they evaluate research assessment and
increasingly in other places, a big issue.
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:But you underpin all this again
with this, this love, what would
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:love have you do and this starting
point also of values and purpose.
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:But for many.
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:People, when we talk about
purpose, it often becomes this
641
:sort of ethereal concept and it,
how do people get a handle on it?
642
:Can you say a little
bit more about purpose?
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:Mark: Yeah, yeah, absolutely.
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:Um, so a question that I start many
of my trainings with, which you can
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:all ask yourselves is simply, what
do you love most about your work?
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:And, uh, and, yeah, you can say, well, I'm
interested in thermodynamics, and that's
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:what I research, yeah, but, but why?
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:Why aren't you interested
in that, of all things?
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:I mean, yeah, go to a school reunion,
um, and try and explain to someone
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:why that is intrinsically, uh, an
interesting, uh, thing that you would
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:love, and you'll just get weird looks.
652
:What is it about that?
653
:Um, and now I get a sense of,
well, it's just this sense of,
654
:of wonder, of awe, of curiosity.
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:Uh, for others it's, uh, this, this sense
of creativity, of playfulness, of fun.
656
:Uh, for others it's, uh, knowing that I'm
making a difference, uh, wanting to help
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:others, uh, seeing, uh, that curiosity
and creativity transformed into something
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:productive others can use, for example.
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:And, and the quality of that
conversation at the end of it, it's
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:energised, it's inspired, and you
realise, yeah, when was the last time I
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:actually thought about that, that why?
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:And then when was the last time I did
something that connected me with that why?
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:And in a busy academic role with personal
pressures of life, you end up just on
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:this hamster wheel sometimes, never
getting to prioritize the things that
665
:you love until you get to this place
where you no longer love your work.
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:Actually, you feel demotivated,
demotivated, de energized,
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:uninspired, you're dragging yourself
through each day, each week.
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:And the idea is simply to ask
yourself, well, what are the things
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:that you do that take you to that
place of, I love, and how can you
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:make time for that on a regular basis?
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:I take people through a bunch of
exercises to really clarify that.
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:I get people to think about
their different identities
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:a work identity, a home
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:identity.
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:What are those different home identities?
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:Have they got different roles?
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:Um, but what do I bring to those roles?
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:So, yeah, I'm a teacher, I'm a researcher,
but actually, no, I'm not just a teacher.
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:I'm a facilitator.
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:That's how I do teaching.
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:I'm not just a researcher.
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:I'm an explorer or whatever it might be.
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:And we now have all of
these different identities.
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:And from those identities,
we look at values.
685
:What are the things that animate,
that inspire you to be a facilitator
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:rather than a teacher, to be an
explorer rather than just a learner,
687
:for example, as a researcher.
688
:Um, where does that come from?
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:And then it is at that intersection
between our identities and our
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:values that we find our purpose.
691
:And the final thing that I get people
to do then is to say, well, great,
692
:if this is who you are and the values
that inspire you, now how does that
693
:match up to how you spend your time?
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:And I get people to draw
this as a pie chart.
695
:And if you redraw that pie chart,
now saying, well, how much time
696
:do I get to spend being creative?
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:Being the father I want to
be, the husband I want to be,
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:or whatever else it might be.
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:What are the things that feel, which
are big parts of your identity,
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:underpinned by important values that
actually feel consistently squeezed?
701
:I never get enough time.
702
:In fact, I get no time at all in
some of these, these parts of myself,
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:and I feel like I'm losing touch
with that part of myself, that I'm
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:becoming thinner somehow as a person.
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:And then the question is, what could
you do on a habitual basis in as
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:little as half an hour on a Monday
morning that could connect you with
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:that part of yourself, or at least
one of those parts of yourself that's
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:really important but is squeezed.
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:What you get then is this disproportional
impact on that sense of who you are,
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:your identity, your values, your
sense of well being, and half an hour.
711
:doing that thing now actually rights
all of these wrongs, gives you this
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:sense of well being, this sense of
work life balance even coming, even
713
:although you haven't quite got the
hours under control yet, that can
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:just power you through so much.
715
:Geri: Yeah, the, the, um, The
thing that is also really impactful
716
:in your Impact Culture book is
the notion that this change can
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:happen from the bottom up as well.
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:Like, we can all do that find a half hour.
719
:And we can all role model that within
our places where we're working.
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:And you talk about building culture
from that bottom up, and that we don't
721
:need to have the sign on our door saying
we're a leader, to be a leader in that.
722
:And, and, Very much that sense
of leading by empowering, and I'm
723
:conscious that we're getting up to time.
724
:I could just leave it there as
a teaser for people to make sure
725
:they go and read the Impact Culture
book to read more about that.
726
:Or is it sort of a short thing
you'd want to say, um, around that?
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:Mark: Yeah, I guess it's
just summing up, isn't it?
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:And, um, How can we go from a conversation
like this into a more purposeful day
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:to make some plans that will connect us
each with whatever our purpose might be,
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:to remind us of that and not to wait.
731
:for a new head of school, um, to
that perfect job that I'm going to
732
:get, um, that, that will be a place
in which I can feel like I belong.
733
:Uh, I can create that place now,
uh, for myself, perhaps with a small
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who share a similar purpose to me.
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:Um, and, um, I just, yeah, I just want
to empower you to, to, to, to think,
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make that time whatever the pressures
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:might be, uh, because it will pay, it
will pay dividends, it really will.
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:Geri: Yeah, and creating that more
purposeful workplace that you talk about
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:as well, which then leads into all of the
actual impact that we want our research
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:to have in the ways that you talk about.
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:So I look forward to your next book
coming out and I will point people
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:wonderful podcast and your books.
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:And I, I also just want to thank
you for making the book so readable,
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:so personal, and so actionable.
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:I Think there's a way in which they
also walk the talk about making
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:a difference and having impact,
uh, just in what you bring to it.
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:Anything that you would want to just say
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:Mark: yeah, just to say
thank you, Geraldine.
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:And, um, and yeah, so, so have a
look, listen to what I'm doing.
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:I've just finished a, a series in
the podcast on, on evaluating and
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:evidencing impact I'm not quite
sure where I'm going to take it next
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:.
Um, and what a privilege it is to be able to connect.
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:So it's always nice when you're
kind of aware of someone, um,
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:and listening to their work and
getting that opportunity to actually
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:So thank you.
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:Geri: Indeed.
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:Thank you, Mark.
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:Thank you.
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:Thank you for your time.
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:Mark: It's been a pleasure.
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:Geri: I really want to
thank mark for sharing.
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:And again, what an inspiring
demonstration of courage,
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:curiosity, and the quest for impact.
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:I'd really encourage you to follow
up on all of Mark's great resources.
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:His podcast, his books.
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:The trainings that he does.
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:And so on.
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:You can find the links to all
of these in the show notes.
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:And I'd also encourage you to think
about what's the one thing you will
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:do now, having listened to this.
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:And what would love have you do today?
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:You can find the summary
notes, a transcript and related
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:links for this podcast on www.
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:changingacademiclife.
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:com.
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:You can also subscribe to
Changing Academic Life on iTunes,
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:Spotify and Google Podcasts.
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:And you can follow
ChangeAcadLife on Twitter.
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:And I'm really hoping that we can
widen the conversation about how
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:we can do academia differently.
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:And you can contribute to this by rating
the podcast and also giving feedback.
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:And if something connected with
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:Together, we can make change happen.
