On research identity, meaningful work and funding (solo)
Triggered by a comment from Katta Spiel in an earlier podcast, in this solo episode I explore the tensions between the autonomy and freedom we have to shape our research identities and do meaningful work, and the systemic constraints from funding and promotion opportunities. The tensions particularly arise when research interests don’t align well with institutional expectations or funding trends. I explore various ways to navigate these tensions, such as, adjusting research focus to align with strategic priorities, reframing research proposals while keeping the core agenda unchanged, or continuing passion projects outside of formal funded frameworks. I also reflect on potential trade-offs and the importance of maintaining personal connection and motivation in our research work. At the end I suggest some strategies for self-reflection and staying in tune with what 'lights you up' as a researcher.
This episode also connects with prior podcast guests Mark Reed and Stuart Reeves.
Overview:
00:29 Introduction and Reflection on Academic Freedom
01:54 Replay from Katta Spiel Part 1
02:37 Mark Reed's principle for engagement and impact
05:22 The Tension Between Personal Values, Identity and Systemic Expectations
07:05 The Reality of Funding Proposals and Strategic Game
08:40 The Impact of Funding Conditions on Research
10:27 The Dilemma of Playing the Funding Game
13:08 Choices for How to Play the Game
19:59 Choosing Not to Play the Game
21:54 Reframing Research Identity
26:55 End
Related links:
Mark Reed, What is good practice engagement and impact? Dec 5 2023
This podcast uses the following third-party services for analysis:
Chartable - https://chartable.com/privacy
Transcript
Welcome to Changing Academic Life.
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:I'm Geraldine Fitzpatrick, and this is
a podcast series where academics and
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:others share their stories, provide
ideas, and provoke discussions about what
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:we can do individually and collectively
to change academic life for the better.
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:Hello and welcome.
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:In this short episode, I'd like to take
some time to reflect on the tensions
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:that I've experienced and that I've been
hearing lately around the autonomy and
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:freedom that we have as academics to
shape our researcher identity and work on
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:things that we love, that we care about,
where we think we can make a difference.
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:And the tension of recognizing that
we're trying to pursue that in a system
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:that we're not fully in control of.
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:In a system that values what gets funded
and defines for us in some ways, what
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:topics are worth exploring and what is
going to get CV value in terms of funding.
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:And consequent papers and success for
promotion or appointments and so on.
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:And I've been thinking about
this triggered by something that
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:Katta Spiel said in part one of
our conversation recently, About
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:their surprise at getting funded.
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:Despite being very uncompromising in
what they wanted to do and deliberately
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:not playing the strategic game of
doing all the right things that
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:were supposedly getting the ticks.
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:And I'll replay an edited extract where
Katta can explain this in their own words.
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:Katta: And the funny thing about
that is because I did write a
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:proper proposal, like it wasn't a
joke proposal or anything, but I
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:wrote one that made no compromises
in terms of what I wanted to do.
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:Like, it didn't try to
pander to reviewers.
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:And then that was what
surprised me so much then that
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:I got it because I was like.
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:I was not trying to do any
of the strategic things.
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:Geri: It's interesting to think about if
it would have been, as successful if you
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:weren't as authentic and uncompromising.
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:Katta: Yeah.
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:That is like then what I keep
telling people sometimes, like if
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:you dare to then just do the thing
that you want to, but I know also
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:that it's really difficult and.
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:And even I can only get there when I'm
not that afraid of like how it could work
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:Geri: And interestingly not long after
this, I came across a post from Mark Reed.
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:You may remember that.
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:I also spoke to mark
very recently as well.
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:And one of Mark's passion areas for
research and for activism is about
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:engagement and impact and in this.
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:Post, and I will put a link to it in the
show notes is where he draws together
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:what he calls nine good practice
principles for engagement and impact.
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:That's drawing on his impact
culture book and some papers they've
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:written and, and his experience
in training people about impact.
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:And I was really struck by principle
number one, which talks about.
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:To read directly, "Understand your purpose
and pursue impacts you find intrinsically
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:motivating rather than allowing extrinsic
incentives to drive your engagement".
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:And that's interesting, isn't it?
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:Because that in some way reflects
what Katta just talked to us about.
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:About being uncompromising in pursuing.
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:What they found intrinsically motivating.
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:So Mark then elaborates in these
principles, what that might mean for
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:institutions and for researchers.
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:So I'll just read what he says this
principle means for researchers.
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:So again, just to read directly.
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:"Researchers need to
clarify their purpose.
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:And to understand if and how
engagement and impact might express
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:important identities and values.
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:And contribute to the meaning
they derive from work."
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:And of quote.
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:But let's return again, to
those words for researchers.
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:Researchers need to define their purpose.
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:About how their work might
express their identities.
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:And values.
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:And contribute to the meaning
they derive from work.
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:And that just sounds wonderful.
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:Doesn't it?
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:And all of the research across many
domains and disciplinary areas would
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:talk about how we're going to be
much more creative and engaged and
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:effective and have better physical and
mental health and wellbeing when we
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:can deliver on that identity, work to
our values, do work that's meaningful
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:that we feel like it has an impact.
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:And then there's the tension that arises
when you're hit with the realities.
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:The tension between what our values are.
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:And what we want to shape our
research identity to be where we
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:derive meaning from our work and
where we want to have impact.
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:And then how this might hit up against.
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:How we practically are able to get
research done these days, which is
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:often through having funded projects
and shaped by other people's notions
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:of what's good research or what are
reseaerchable and fundable topics.
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:Towards this, then I'm also reflecting
on some various social media posts I've
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:also happened to have seen recently.
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:From colleagues who talk about getting
rejected yet again yet again yet
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:again, despite excellent reviews for
the research they'd been passionate
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:about for many, many, many years.
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:Research topics that are at
the core of how they define
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:themselves as a researcher.
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:And in some of these posts.
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:You can almost hear the grieving
at having to let go of those
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:topics that they really care about.
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:And then just the uncertainty
about what to focus on next and.
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:and how they should redefine
their research identity or not.
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:And it brings to life for me very
much that what we get to define
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:as our own research topics is so
core to our identity and purpose.
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:As Mark says, in that principle.
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:About feeling alive and feeling like
it makes a difference in our work.
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:But the facts of life are that not
fitting with funding calls or government
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:grand research challenges happens.
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:A lot of the funding proposals that
we need to write, depending on the
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:scheme, we need to often frame very
closely to what the funders are needing.
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:And when we go to training courses,
they'll often tell us about reusing
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:their words back to them and making
sure we frame the proposals to
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:deliver exactly what the call is
asking for that may or may not fit
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:with what we actually want to do.
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:Or what we think is the right thing to do.
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:And then there's the question of not just
having an excellent research project as
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:some of those social media posts have
said, but even getting excellent reviews.
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:What is deemed as fundable within current
priorities of the funding organization
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:or the government body or whatever.
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:And what is fundable also seems to be
changing as well as in many places in
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:many schemes is getting harder and harder
it seems to have more open exploratory
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:research or to ask more complex questions.
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:Again, social media posts that I can
reflect on talk about the challenges
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:of even moving to a different country
where research that was acceptable
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:more in one country is less so
in this new country where there's
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:more of an emphasis on industry
collaborations and applied research.
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:And then some other tensions that we
can feel that particularly, I guess, go
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:towards values . Sometimes the funding
comes with very strict conditions.
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:There's some funding schemes that I've
been part of that are more applied
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:where we have to define very clearly
what our phases are going to be?
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:What particular activities we're going
to do and exact deliverables and exactly
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:when they're going to be delivered.
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:And at the same time, this was a
scheme where we were encouraged to have
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:more participatory approaches and to
engage with the people for whom we were
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:designing new technologies in this case.
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:But it felt like that engagement and
that participation was really lip
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:service because it would have been
almost impossible to go back to the
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:funding body and say the funding
that you've given us to deliver X.
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:It's not what our participants want.
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:They want something very different.
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:That's Y.
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:And the fear I know in the
discussions that we would have
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:as a project team would be.
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:How the funding body might pull the
funding, or we would have to pay back
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:the funding we'd already received, how it
would impact people's contracts and jobs.
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:And so on.
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:And so there's that tension between what
we need to say we're doing, what funding
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:bodies expect and what are the principles
and values that guide our research.
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:So for us, really engaging with
participants very closely was a
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:really closely held principle.
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:And that created a lot of internal
tension for us individually and as
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:a team in not being able to properly
respect the participant's wishes.
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:And then there's the issue of playing
the game where you are told you need
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:funding for your CV for promotion,
for moving onto different jobs.
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:But not all research actually needs
big funding projects and Stuart Reeves.
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:Again, another earlier podcast
conversation that I had talks about the
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:fact that a lot of the research that
he wants to do just really needs him
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:and maybe one or two people to help.
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:And yet that sort of research isn't
deemed as CV worthy or promotion
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:worthy research in terms of the brownie
points and the ticks we need to do.
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:And to hear Stuart in his own words.
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:Stuart: I've also thought about,
people's different research styles, and
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:sometimes I feel like the kind of style
of research I do, firstly, doesn't tend
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:to cost that much money, and secondly,
is, I don't know, It feels like it's not
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:necessarily, going to lead to or work
well with sort of massive, massive grants.
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:Or maybe I'm just not understanding how
to frame stuff or spin stuff in such a
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:way that it could be seen as doing that.
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:So some people's research in
HCI seems to be tailored more
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:towards getting large research
grants, whereas others maybe less.
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:I mean, I feel like, sometimes
there's a lot of research you can
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:do from stuff I kind of do, which
you could do with very little, very
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:little resources and get similar kind
of results in terms of publications
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:and all those kinds of things.
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:Geri: And that was from Stuart Reeves.
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:Episode part one at about 11 minutes,
if you did want to go in and try to
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:listen to it because he does talk
more about the challenges of trying
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:to frame a grand vision and so on.
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:So It just seems to me like there's
an ongoing challenge and negotiation
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:around identifying who we are.
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:What our research identity
is, what we care about.
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:What our values are, what's
meaningful work for us.
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:What difference we want to make?
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:What impact we want to have.
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:And negotiating with how we navigate
the current structures and processes.
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:And.
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:At what currently counts as research
and what currently counts as project.
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:And I recognize in all this, our ability
to negotiate those tensions changes,
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:depending upon what stage of career, where
at what institution we're in and so on.
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:So what are our choices?
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:I don't have any answers here.
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:I'm just sort of more reflecting
on the experiences, maybe just to
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:normalize that you may be not the only
one trying to navigate these tensions.
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:So we could choose just to play the
game because when we weigh the trade
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:off it may be more important for
us to be able to advance our career
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:or to be able to get access to the
funding to at least do something.
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:And indeed, Katta did talk about
being more strategic in one proposal
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:than they were in a previous one.
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:Because for them the weighing
of risks change because this new
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:proposal entailed three years, four
years of funding for jobs for other
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:people that they cared about.
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:And so they weren't just playing
a game individually in not being
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:strategic, but needing to play the
game and be strategic because they
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:cared about these other people.
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:Another way we can choose to play
the game is in reframing the story.
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:And I often talk to people about
your leading actors and supporting
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:actors in a research story.
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:I remember a colleague many years
ago, who submitted a research funding
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:proposal to a particular funding body.
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:And it got desk rejected.
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:They said that it wasn't fitting to,
to their strand of research funding.
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:And with much thinking and discussion
what this person ended up doing
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:was retelling the story of exactly
the same work, but foregrounding,
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:backgrounding, different aspects,
making something that was more of the.
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:Uh, supporting actor now, the
leading actor and so-and-so.
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:An example was where they were really
foregrounding the participatory
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:approach that they were going to
take with their target audience in
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:order to come up with a new system.
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:And the emphasis was on the development
of the methodology and the learning
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:and thinking skills that their
participants would gain in that process.
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:And they just reframed it to say this
project was about the technology.
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:Oh, and by the way, we'll do it by
participatory engagement with our
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:participants and as a coincidental
impact they will learn something
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:So you can see the same pieces are
there, but they were just reframed.
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:It's totally playing the game.
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:And that proposal went through got
excellent reviews and got funded.
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:And for that person that game cost
the effort of rewriting reframing the
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:proposal, but they were still lucky enough
to be able to still basically talk about
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:doing exactly the same work that they
really cared about doing . Just telling
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:a different story about it, that fitted
someone else's agenda for that time.
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:And then there's the game that we
can play that's just about getting
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:projects for the sake of it.
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:And it could be for the sake of
the tick, because that's what
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:we need right now for our CV.
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:Or it could be for the sake of a
colleague and wanting to be supportive.
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:Or it could just be about hedging,
our bets in the funding lottery.
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:But that can be risky as well.
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:So, We may all have had experiences
of saying yes to be on someone else's
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:project that we don't necessarily really
care about, but we may be care about
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:that person and what does support them.
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:And.
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:It gets funded.
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:And then we're committed to that work.
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:And if you're conscientious, then you
will take that commitment seriously.
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:At a cost of time and effort and energy.
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:And you can almost feel your lack
of energy when you talk about it.
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:I'm reflecting on some of
my own project experiences.
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:And similarly, I've worked in some places
where say a post-doc isn't able to be
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:a PI on a project in their own, right.
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:So in wanting to support them and
their career progression and their
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:development and them being able to
do research that they own and drive.
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:I am happy to go onto their project
proposal as the PI and support them
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:in that, of course not just in name,
but trying to say, what do you need
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:a support from me in writing it up
and framing the research and so on.
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:But it's someone else's meaning
and purpose, and it's reflecting
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:someone else's research identity.
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:And normally when they get funded and
the person's doing it, I would be playing
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:much more of a supportive role, a coach
type role in, helping them deliver
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:on the work, but letting them own it
because it's their passion project.
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:And I've had the experience of
that happening and then that
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:person leaving for another job.
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:And not being able to take
the project with them.
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:And then I'm left with actually
delivering on the details of that project.
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:And it's not a project
that I really care about.
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:It's work.
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:I can do it.
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:But it doesn't light me up in that
same way as it would, if it was
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:a project that was my project.
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:That connected to my values,
to the impact I wanted to have.
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:And similarly I've also had the experience
of having a number of projects under
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:review at the same time, including my
passion projects, that I really care
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:about my identity projects and the other
ones that I may have gone on just to
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:be part of a collaboration or to support
someone in their career and getting
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:their research identity sort of shaped.
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:And that the disappointment of your
own project not getting funded and the
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:only one or ones that do get funded
are the ones that you care less about.
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:And again, it's that cost of
time and energy and effort.
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:And not having the impact that you would
really want from your research efforts.
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:And I know that as I've got more senior in
my career, I've been much more strategic,
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:I guess, and careful about those
sorts of projects that I've taken on.
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:Having been, burnt sounds
like the wrong word, but.
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:Having paid the cost for some of that.
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:And I recognize the privilege
of maybe not needing to play
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:that game as much as you go on.
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:Especially when you
have a secure position.
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:Although, I also recognize that there's
always the ongoing tension of trying
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:to get more funding because you care
about the people that you're working
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:with and that they have next short-term
contract to move on to where we don't
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:have long-term contracts for them to get.
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:Whole lot of interesting
tensions and trade offs.
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:So we could also choose
not to play the game.
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:And that could just mean going ahead and
doing the research that we want to do.
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:Maybe drawing in one or two others
or seeking out collaborations
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:of people who we know would
also care about the same topics.
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:And we don't get the CV tick
in the box as an extra funded
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:project that's prestigious.
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:But we do get to carry on and
do the work we care about.
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:So gain costs and trade-offs.
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:And.
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:Maybe for another time, we could
also talk about other sorts of
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:funding mechanisms, like crowd
funding, or other sources of funding.
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:That may be a, not so.
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:Uh, recognized or held in esteem
by our institutions, but enable
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:us to get on and do the work we
want and have the impact we want
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And in all of this, where we still want to get funding for projects
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:that we care about, whether it's for
CV value or helping someone else's
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:career, or just because we love
working in collaborations with people.
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:When is it time to stop playing the game?
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:Or When is it time to change directions?
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:And I think one of the advantages of
the research area that I'm in, which
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:is human computer interaction research
is because we're really focused on
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:the impact of technology and design
on people and contexts and how do we
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:design better technologies and so on.
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:We do have the opportunity to pivot.
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:Quite a bit.
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:In terms of latest technologies that
may help redefine some challenges or
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:being able to take similar technologies
and explore them in different domains
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:and still asking similar questions.
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:And maybe not all research areas
can have some of that flexibility.
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:I'd like to finish off here by providing
some reflections about how we could
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:engage in some of that reframing.
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:In a way that still connects to the
intrinsic motivation that Mark talked
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:about earlier in his first principle.
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:Because it is fundamentally
going to our research identity.
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:It's about expressing our values,
who we are, what we care about.
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:Enabling us to do work that we
find meaningful that will have
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:the impact that we want to have.
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:And maybe there are multiple ways of doing
that retelling of our research identity.
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:Or reframing our research stories.
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:And also recognizing that our identity
will necessarily evolve with time
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:and experience and circumstance.
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:So can we give ourselves the gift
of some deliberate time and effort
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:to actually step back and stop.
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:And reflect on questions that might help
us explore who we are when we're most
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:alive and at our best as researchers.
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Those questions might be things like.
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:What's the red thread or red
threads across all of the
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:research that you've done.
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:Like, what are the common
or recurring themes?
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:What are the deeper underlying
questions that you're asking?
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:Maybe it's about how you've
been developing methods.
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:Or evolving your concepts over time.
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:Or maybe there are particular types
of impacts that you're trying to seek.
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:One approach to this is to draw
out a map of the last X years,
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:X being as relevant for you and
where you're at with your career.
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:And think about all the different
projects and research that you've
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:been involved in over that time.
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:And for each of them reflecting about
when were the times you felt most alive?
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:When you felt like you could really
get into the flow when you were really
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:excited about what you're working on.
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:What were you doing then?
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:Who with where?
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:What questions were you asking.
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:What values did it connect to?
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:What strengths were you drawing on?
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:And you could also look for the opposite.
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:Like when were the times and the projects
and the work where you felt most like
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:a drag and it just felt like hard work.
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:Or you felt 'meh'.
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:It's okay.
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:But not that excitement or that energy.
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:So in this sort of mapping
and reflection, you're looking
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:across these for the patterns.
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:For the elements that might help
you reframe your research identity.
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:Looking for the actors
in your research story.
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:And it may help point you in new
directions that are grounded in
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:when you're really at your best,
doing your most impactful work.
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:So that we're not just trying
to compromise and reframe our
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:research identity to fit in with
someone else's notion of what's
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:the current research priority.
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:But we're looking for ways
to navigate the tensions.
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:So that we can find that sweet spot of
what we love doing and how that can be
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:shaped to meet maybe what others need.
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:And as a final thing.
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:Just a reminder that it's okay to be you.
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:And to do you, and to be your sort
of researcher, we're all different.
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:And recognizing that there are always
going to be trade offs in every choice
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:we make in navigating these tensions.
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:So wishing you wisdom in the navigation.
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:. And clear insight into what lights you up.
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:So that you can keep having fun and having
impact in the work that you're doing.
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